I've managed to push everyone away.  I guess it just shows that I am worthless and that I'm just a waste of space.  No one cares.  J won't talk to me and AA told me to fuck off.  That leaves me with....  uh...  no one.  I don't know what to do.  I want to die.  I might as well.  I don't see any other option left.  I feel too sick now to want to eat.  I was planning breakfast and lunch and snacks.  Now, I'm just not going to eat.  Restricting won't be a problem now.  Hopefully by next week I'll be skinny enough to die.

~Kes