Part I: DisCERNing CLOUDs and God Particles

Only an atheist would search for a God Particle. ~ Joseph Johnson

When I was a child I loved taking tests, at least until the time came when I was asked to show my work and to reveal how I came to the answers. Many times I could not explain or show my calculations. It was as if the answers just came to me from a language-free place in my heart-mind. This abstract way of thinking and learning proved frustrating to some of my teachers and forced me to change the natural manner in which I receive and exchange information. I quickly learned how to fit into the 20th century educational model of a good student by repressing, and worse, distrusting my innate intelligence. Over the years, I have recovered some of these discarded pieces and have lucid moments in which I simply "know" but cannot express why or how. Perhaps it is more accurate to say I "feel" the answer.



Thus it was with mixed 'feelings' that I read the latest news on climate change. Research scientists from CERN's CLOUD project have finally discovered out the cause of global warming: the Sun and cosmic rays (click here). Yes, now according to one of the most celebrated science clubs, climate change may in part be orchestrated by the Sun and the cosmic rays of many of its star siblings. While I may be exaggerating the results (for a more objective response click here ), this connection is one that my intuition had also suspected without spending 9 million dollars. So why is something tugging at that space in my heart suggesting "buyer beware" of this story instead of jumping for joy that my intuition was right. Could it be just a case of bloggers like myself taking a shred of evidence and making a eye-catching headline, or political agendas swaying opinion by misrepresenting the significance of the results?

Or could my distrust and disbelief be due to the fact that the story was released under Mercury retrograde? As most astrologers will tell you, Mercury retrograde is not the time to make agreements or start new projects because when the planet of communication is in retrograde motion, we might not be getting all the facts. Sometimes there may be missing or withheld information that is uncovered at a later time when the planet is direct. Mercury is the god of communication and his archetypes include the winged messenger, trickster and teacher. During a retrograde, the Trickster is more active and comes out to play, reveal and deceive. Moreover, CLOUD's results were published on August 24, 2011 when the Moon in Gemini/Ardra was in a mutual exchange (parivartana yoga) with Mercury in Cancer/Ashlesha. Ardra is a nakshatra associated with extreme and catastrophic weather changes and Ashlesha is a nakshatra associated with kundalini energy (cosmic rays) and with deception and intrigue. Thus by observing the astrological influences surrounding this announcement, we have additional intuitive evidence that there may be more to it than meets the uncritical eye.

The results of CLOUD's research were published on August 24, 2011 in the prestigious journal Nature with little fanfare that some say is because the findings are really not "interesting" or "significant" (click here). Even the Director General of CERN, Rolf-Dieter Heuer, stated:

I have asked the colleagues to present the results clearly, but not to interpret them. That would go immediately into the highly political arena of the climate change debate. One has to make clear that cosmic radiation is only one of many parameters.

Sure, cosmic radiation is obviously only one of many parameters in global warming, but as physicist Lubos Motl points out:

'One has to make clear that cosmic radiation is only one of many parameters' is really a proof of his [Heuer's] prejudice. Whether the cosmic radiation is just one player or the only relevant player or an important player or an unimportant player is something that this very research has been supposed to determine or help to determine. An official doesn’t have the moral right to predetermine in advance what “one has to make clear” about these a priori unknown scientific results.



The hypothesis that cosmic rays and the sun hold the key to the global warming debate has been rejected and suppressed by the global warming establishment ever since it was first proposed by two scientists from the Danish Space Research Institute at a 1996 scientific conference in the U.K. Although the Danes found themselves marginalized by mainstream science, well respected physicists such as Jasper Kirby were still interested and brave enough to convince the managing powers of CERN to sink some money into the CLOUD (Cosmics Leaving OUtdoor Droplets) experiment. According to Lawrence Solomon: It took Mr. Kirkby almost a decade of negotiation with his superiors, and who knows how many compromises and unspoken commitments, to convince the CERN bureaucracy to allow the project to proceed. And years more to create the cloud chamber and convincingly validate the Danes’ groundbreaking theory. Thus it is amazing that CERN, whose initial job description is arguably something completely different than atmospheric science, would spend 9 million dollars on a project with such a controversial hypothesis.

And I find it somewhat ironic that CERN, the organization that invented the World Wide Web (the first gate to the virtual world) and built the Large Hadron Collider (LHC for short that some say is a star gate) to find the Higgs boson, the so-called God particle, is now stuck in the middle of the debate concerning the source global warming: whether it is a natural or man-made process. The contrast between the two worlds is intriguing and raises questions about the meaning of creation. The natural world is a creation or expression the divine god-mind, whereas the imaginary world of the internet is designed by the mental field of man-mind. Is Man imitating God, or worse seeking His magical power stored in an elementary particle? So much of CERN's work is hidden from the public eye that it makes me suspect of their motives and of their findings (even though I have said for years it's the sun and cosmic rays heating up all the planets in our solar system). And now that the director of CERN has publicly revealed his political bias and shut down scientists from making inevitable conclusions, it is clear there is more going on than meets the eye.



Even more starting than this new research that indicates global warming is a natural process, is CERN's recent the admission that the elusive Higgs boson particle, or God particle, may not exist after all. After months of reports of internal leaks and rumors that CERN scientists were on the brink of, or had found, the Higgs boson particle, they reversed gears and announced at the Lepton-Photon conference in Mumbai that their research shows a 95 percent probability that the hypothetical Higgs boson particle is nothing more than a figment of imagination (click here for more). This is a BIG deal in the physics world. Since 1963 the Higgs boson has been theorized by many in the physics community to be the elementary particle responsible for sparking the Big Bang, and thus the entire universe and everything in it. The Higgs boson is often referred to as "the God particle" by the media, taken from the title of Leon Lederman's book, The God Particle: If the Universe Is the Answer, What Is the Question? Lederman initially wanted to call it the "goddamn particle," but his editor would not let him.





Many scientists dislike the nickname 'God particle' as it overstates its importance. The existence of the Higgs boson is postulated to resolve inconsistencies in theoretical physics. It is the only elementary particle in the Standard Model that has not yet been observed in particle physics experiments and is considered the Holy Grail by physicists who support this model. The Higgs boson particle is believed to be responsible for diffusing massive particles with their mass when the Universe was more youthful. In other words, the Higgs boson is part of a meta-narrative that physicists use to explain the creation of the Universe. So if the Higgs doesn’t exist, where does mass in the universe come from? Now it seems that theories that go beyond the Standard Model of particle physics may be taken more seriously.

Of course not all physicists agree with the Big Bang theory or the existence of the Higgs boson. Even Stephen Hawking made a famous bet a few years ago that CERN's LHC, along with every other particle accelerator, won’t find the Higgs boson, the elusive ‘God particle‘, simply because it does not exist (click here). Looks like he may be right. Personally my own preference for theories like the cyclic universe described in the Endless Universe by Steinhart and Turok or Endless, Boundless, Stable Universe by Grote Reber comes from a feeling or belief that the universe is indeed infinite, and goes through periods of cyclic expansion and contraction. I find Nassim Haramein's unification theory far more promising than the Big Bang theory as it answers many of inconsistencies of theoretical physics. For example his work on the Schwarzschild proton strongly suggests that matter at many scales may be organized by black-holes and black hole-like phenomena and thereby lead to a scale unification of the fundamental forces and matter. (Click here for a link to more of Haramein's research papers.) Thus there are no elementary particles, only fractal levels with a black (w)hole at the center that goes on for infinity.



While the scientists at CERN state that, with a 95% probability, the Higgs boson does not exist within the range of energies the LHC has so far explored, between 145 and 466 billion electron volts, there is still a 5% chance that the Higgs is hiding somewhere within this energy range. So the search is not quite over. Hmmm.

Amir Aczel at Scientific American writes:

So while CERN will continue its search for the Higgs at least until the end of this year, if no positive results about the Higgs should come out, Stephen Hawking—betting against the entire world of physics, as it were—would be able to cash in on his wager. And in that case, Congress may feel that even though its 1993 decision to cancel the American alternative to CERN—the Superconducting Super Collider—was generally met with chagrin by the American physics community, it may have been the right move one after all: to spend billions of taxpayer dollars in search of a particle that likely does not exist would have been wasteful.

So what will happen to CERN now that two of its big experiments have proved the opposite of what they initially proposed? After taking 16 years and $10 billion to build, is the LHC headed for the garbage heap? Unlikely. Could CERN's LHC be used for something else? Or has all that money be used to study something else?

Over the years CERN's quest for the so-called 'God particle' has raised a lot of controversy especially in conspiracy circles and in fundamentalist religious groups. Perhaps spurred on by popular books and movies like Angels and Demons, based on Dan Brown's mystery thriller, whose plot involves stolen anti-matter from CERN, secret societies, and priests gone bad, many blogs and commentaries expressed fear that the accelerator would ultimately create a black hole and destroy the planet. The blockbuster movie Angels and Demons was released in May of 2009, nine months after the LHC was first fired up and six months before its first successful smash up. And of course CERN's logo has caused some conCERN as it is a stylized representation of 6-6-6, which only amplifies the apocalyptic themes associated with the LHC. Or perhaps it's the statue of Shiva Nataraja given to CERN by the Indian government to celebrate the research center's long association with India that castes a shadow over CERN's true purpose. In the Hindu tradition Shiva is the destroyer or transformer god among the Trimurti (Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva), the Hindu Trinity of the primary aspects of the divine.


A plaque next to the statue explains the significance of the metaphor of Shiva's cosmic dance with several quotations from The Tao of Physics by Fritjof Capra:

More recently, Fritjof Capra explained that "Modern physics has shown that the rhythm of creation and destruction is not only manifest in the turn of the seasons and in the birth and death of all living creatures, but is also the very essence of inorganic matter," and that "For the modern physicists, then, Shiva's dance is the dance of subatomic matter."

It is indeed as Capra concluded: "Hundreds of years ago, Indian artists created visual images of dancing Shivas in a beautiful series of bronzes. In our time, physicists have used the most advanced technology to portray the patterns of the cosmic dance. The metaphor of the cosmic dance thus unifies ancient mythology, religious art and modern physics."

The two most common forms of Shiva's dance are the Lasya (the gentle form of dance), associated with the creation of the world, and the Tandava (the violent and dangerous dance), associated with the destruction of weary worldviews. The Lasya and the Tandava are just two aspects of Shiva's nature: he destroys in order to create, tearing down to build again. Assigned with destroying all of the universe at the end of time, CERN's Shiva appears to be guarding what some might call a doomsday machine capable of creating black holes that would destroy the planet. Others see CERN and the LHC as a secret military project designed to open up star gates or portals to other worlds as in the movie Contact. There was even a bizarre report of a "man from the future" who was arrested at the LHC claiming that he had travelled from the future to prevent the LHC from destroying the world (click here ). He mysteriously escaped.



Author and investigative mythologist William Henry describes an intriguing similarity between the 8-spoked LHC and the 8-spoked wheel indicating a wormhole in Mayan cosmology.



Henry writes: As I discussed in my DVD presentation, Stargate 2012, the Mayans say from out of this tree/star alignment comes a serpent rope with an enlightened being named Nine Winds or Quetzalcoatl riding upon it and a blessed substance’ or ‘sap’ the Mayans called itz (literally ‘the blessed substance’) apparently spewing from it.Usually, when one thinks of ‘sap’ they’re thinking of a watery liquid nutrient that circulates through the conducting tissues of a plant or tree (that or a person who acts like an idiot). However, when I Go(ogle)d, excuse me, Googled, ‘cosmic sap’ I found that ‘sap’ is also an acronym for ‘sub atomic particle’ (or sap). Hmm. Are the Mayans describing a ‘blessed sub atomic particle’ that will appear in 2012, give or take year or two? Is this the same as the God Particle?

Some circles believe that CERN is punching holes in the space-time continuum resulting in unusual and unexplained phenomena like the Norway spiral.


Was it mere coincidence that on December 9, 2009, 8 hours after CERN smashed together subatomic particles at the highest energies ever reached by a human-made accelerator (click here), the enigmatic Norway Spiral suddenly appeared over the morning skies of Norway (click here) a day before Barack Obama received the Nobel Peace Prize in Oslo.








Two days prior to the big smash and Norway lights, the UN Convention on Climate Control, COP-15, the child of the 1997 Kyoto Protocol, began their annual two week meeting in nearby Copenhagen. Every year since the convention was established a conference takes place called Conference of the Parties, or COP for short, where the countries which have ratified the convention meet to discuss how they can meet the objective of the convention: to prevent global warming. According to the official Denmark website: "the goals of the climate change convention are to stabilize the amount of greenhouse gases in the atmosphere at a level that prevents dangerous man-made climate changes." Although the official policies were based on consensus among scientists that global warming is a driven by human activities and caused by the burning of fossil fuels in cars, trucks and power plants, the logo for the 2009 meeting was odd.












So what inspired their blue logo which looks more like an image of an elemental particle than something to do with the planet earth like the previous and later logos of COP-14 and COP-16 both of which use a world tree image. Isn't it a strange synchronicity that the logo bears a remarkable resemblance to CERN's particle imagery and same blue hue as the Norway spiral. It also bears a remarkable resemblance to images from the 2007 science fiction film The Last Mimzy. Presented as a flashback, The Last Mimzy is the story of a distant future's attempt to avert a catastrophic ecological disaster that has destroyed their world. Hmmm.



And don't even get me started on the synchronicity of all these blue phenomenon and logos with the release of James Cameron's Avatar in December 2009. As I have written in previous posts I associate blue with the fifth and sixth chakras that vibrate in a blue frequency and correspond to truth and spiritual insight. There is also an element of fantasy associated with the blue chakras, like a desire for purity, or for the world to be other than it is. So what is with the blue of all these logos? It does resemble the electron cloud of an atom. Is it a blue particle? Does it remind you of anything? Remember the book cover from Jaeckel's The God Particle?



What is this blue sphere? The great Hindu sage Swami Muktananda (1908–1982), who introduced Siddha Yoga practices and meditation techniques to the United Sates, gave a detailed description of the significance and of his experiences of what he calls the Blue Pearl: The Blue Pearl is the subtlest covering of an individual soul. When we see this tiny blue light in meditation, we should understand that we are seeing the form of the inner Self. To experience this is the goal of human life. [The Blue Pearl] is tiny, but it contains all the different planes of existence. Thus a blue pearl might be compared to the speck of divine, or god particle, in each of us.

My yoga teacher Katerina Wen first introduced me to the concept of the blue dot/orb in this video by Liquid Buddha. The video begins with an energetic representation of the blue lotus surrounded by white orbs and from which a spiraling dodecahedron emerges. It is an amazing visual representation of the energetic forces of consciousness.



In his book The Oracle of the Illuminati William Henry reveals how historically this image was also called the Blue Apple, the Divine Blue Particle, and the Blue Stone. Henry writes: The expression blue blooded, and the meaning of blue skin, I believe, originally symbolized the idea of having the wisdom of the Word, the Divine Blue Being, pulsing in one's veins (vines). The closer one was to becoming the Blue Being the bluer one's blood ran and the bluer one's skin became. In his book Blue Apples, Henry also suggests that Blue Stones are an exotic matter that the gods, or extraterrestrials, used to create gateways and pass through to other realms.

Moreover, at the end of 2009 Henry had a lot to say about the connection between the Norway spiral, CERN stargates, and the COP-15 convention as part of the beginning of a "new world order." In an article called Warning: The Apotheosis is at Hand, World Government is Here he revealed:

. . . the new European Union President Herman van Rompuy said last week, "The climate conference in Copenhagen is another step toward the global management of our planet." . . . Fortunately, the signing of the binding treaty has been delayed till later in 2010. Seems the conference’s earth chilling plans may have melted on November 23, 2009 when emails released by an anonymous computer hacker revealed that several leading climate scientists hired to provide objective and factual climate data to the Copenhagen conference allegedly manipulated climate data and research. This data was used by the conference’s advisors the United Nations Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPCC). The IPPC claimed that man-made emissions are causing calamitous global warming. It turns out that the computer models that a lot of the policy the UN advocates positions are based on may be full of, well, I will let you fill in the blank. The scientists knew it and manipulated the data to promote their do or die climate scenario. They got caught. It’s being called “the greatest scientific scandal ever.”

So now, two years later, CERN is releasing ground-breaking information on global warming and admitting the God particle may not exist, all under Mercury retrograde which may mean more revelation or scandal is coming. And even more disconcerting is the new logo for this fall's COP-17, a leafless and withering tree.

Seventeen is a number associated with themes of salvation, hope and ascension. In addition to its obvious connection to the 17th major arcana Star card in the Tarot, blogger Christopher Knowles has been commenting on 17s association with Osiris, lord of the underworld, whose Egyptian feast day is the 17th of March, and how it relates to the Blazing star of the Masons in his blog, the Secret Sun. In his Stairway to Sirius series he illuminates the incredible synchronicity between apparently unconnected events that occurred in December 2009. They are all tied together by the symbol of the star, or "secret sun." Could the secret sun also be the blue pearl? Like the Hopi blue Kachina, the secret sun is suppose to reveal itself at the end of time.




According to Vedic astrologer Prash Trivedi the number 17 is usually seen as a bringer of celestial waters down to the earth plane. Anuradha is the 17th nakshatra which presides over numerology and is known as the decoder of the secrets of the universe. Both Trivedi and Knowles contend that 17's magic goes back to ancient mystery cults of Egypt. Conspiracy writers believe it is used to trigger the subconscious mind and ready it for download. The nakshatra Anuradha contains three stars in the body of Scorpio. Although its primary symbol is the lotus flower, it's secondary symbol is an archway -- or portal. Just as the roots of a lotus are buried in the mud, they must grow and push the stem up through the water in the sunlight and release the delicately scented flower. This pattern of growth signifies the progress of the soul from the primeval mud of materialism, through the waters of experience, and into the bright sunshine of enlightenment. Thus the symbols of Anuradha reflects its ability to bring the flowering of consciousness out of the challenges of the murky material world and perhaps open up a new portal for our enlightened bodies to pass through. Anuradha is ruled by the planet Saturn, the blue deity who rules over time. Could the 17th nakshatra also be pointing to a blue stargate?

After a year full of weather-related disasters such as the nuclear melt down following the 8.9 earthquake in Japan, drought and famine in Somalia, and record summer heat in much of the US, COP-17's world tree has lost its leaves and is barren. Let's hope the COP-17 leafless tree image is not forecasting the destruction of the world tree, but rather like the green Osiris, the hibernation period before the resurrection and return of the tree of life on our planet.

May you reconnect with your own blue apple and raise the frequency on this beautiful blue pearl that we share and call Earth.

ॐ Namaste! ॐ


















To be continued. . .